So the announcement first. Changed up my email back to the way it was before I worked at Hubris. Having Hubris as a backup internet service provider and my email provider is proving to be a very expensive backup plan, so I’m getting rid of it. They are by far the most reliable ISP that I’ve ever used, but it’s no longer worth the $150/month I am paying. So, this means that my email will change back to Gmail services, and I will no longer have faxing services. If you can’t do email instead of faxing, you need to catch up with technology anyways, to be blunt.
So. The only email addresses that will be valid are:
firstname.lastname@example.org – Personal email, anything that’s not professionally related.
email@example.com – For anything ham radio or emergency management related.
firstname.lastname@example.org – For anything weather related, weather reports, photos, video, etc.
email@example.com – Hacker information, anything security related, and forwards.
firstname.lastname@example.org – Anything related to eBay, craigslist, or Paypal. Taking donations.
<<< End of Announcement >>>
Now, it’s time to request your feedback on something of a personal nature. I have people living with me at my house. My best friend, Kelli, her sister Emily, my ex, mother of my child, Tahnee, and of course, my son, Lucas. Kelli is awesome and couldn’t possibly be a better roommate. Emily’s cool, goddamn teenagers (inside joke). Tahnee is the issue of discussion.
The issue with Tahnee is that some days, she can be totally amazing and cool, and a dream come true for me. But more and more days lately, she’s being completely the opposite, assumes too much out of a simple statement, rude, and just being an asshole when I am trying to have a simple and easy conversation. Her and I have a long history, and I really love having my son living in the same house as me. And when Tahnee’s being cool, I really like having her around as well. But lately she’s just been getting worse. I guess, here’s the question. At what point do you throw in the towel and give up and just have her be gone and out of your life? At what point do you just give up from the overflow of drama? At what point for you, is it too much and you just say fuck it? I do not tolerate any drama, and she’s been all of mine lately. I want things to stay in the same house, but at the same time I want to move on and date someone that will treat me with the respect that I deserve, and I cannot do that with her living here. So I’m pretty torn over the whole thing. I’m ready to give up and not try to make things work with her because if I do try to make things work, then she’ll pull some of the same crap she did before that caused us to break up. What’s the point of trying to make something work when you cannot trust the person anymore? What happens when they fuck up so much that you can no longer forgive them?
I know you’re used to answers from me instead of questions, as I am really usually pretty damn good at solving almost anyone’s problems, ironic that I cannot solve my own at this point. I’m really not sure on what to do. I want to have a good holiday season with everyone, but after that’s over, something definitely needs to change, and she’s made it obvious by now that it’s not going to be her. I know that it’s important that a family should be all under the same roof, and I know it’s important that a family be truly happy. Right now, the truly happy part isn’t happening. So what’s worse? Living apart but happy, or living together and miserable in hopes that it’ll all work itself out later? Lucas is only nine months old, he’s not quite old enough to detect unhappiness yet, and I refuse to have him see me unhappy.
One last thing. Family means everything to me. My immediate family refuses to interact with me lately for numerous stupid and ignorant reasons. My extended family lives in Kansas City so I can’t see them as often as I should, and I’m going to make a better effort to see them in 2014. But family is important to me regardless.
I just want to be happy. Is that so much to ask?
What do I do?